The joy that fills my heart, I always heard people talk of butterflies in their bellies I never got understand what they meant till I had my first encounter. It’s more of a sick feeling but somehow you like the cause to the sickness than the sickness. I try not to get ahead of myself but can’t get things in order despite my calmness I keep losing it, I cant deny it he’s there. I keep tossing and turning eagerly waiting for morning to rise so I can keep on with him, it’s not a dream or fantasy its real because I’m living every minute of it.
Thus this far you have carried me through, five years of stay in this land of Malaysia (as some would say it) have been a great and more journey that was filled with all manner of emotions and life experiences. July 2007 I touched down in Asia with solely intention of spending the exact specified time that's my course schedule, little did I know that the Almighty God had better plans for me. Long story short four years turned to be five years and a few months on the side having accomplished what I came for, it was not because of my hard working that earned me the good results but the grace and favour of God along with endless mercies that patched up here and there. Anyone can start, in fact we can all start something in life but it’s only a handful that will see it to the end of what they started, I purposed to be tenacious and persevere and I finally attained the mark I have set for myself.
I was like a little bird that knew it’s time for it to learn how to fly but was lazy to make a few attempts on its own, till the mother bird pushes out of the nest to fall down and on its way down its compelled to stretch its wings, flap a few times and get hold of the wind tide so it can fly well. Despite what my parents taught me I just refused to grow up, I never had boarding school experience or Christmases away from family nor school holidays far from loved ones. I was just in that corner till I made a decision to come over and that’s where I felt the pushing off my parents care and protection, from crying when I’m faced with a hard decision or crisis to handle right there then wait for someone to tell me what to do to solve the situation to immediately respond to the situation then cry later. Hahaha I still don’t get it why I used to do that but somehow I felt its consoling.
…from an arrogant and full of attitude girl, to this constantly growing beautiful inside out young woman who has gone through immerse transformation that currently allows her to now live on her own, get married and sure will make a good wife someday and mother. …from a person that needed an intermediary to mingle with ‘other friends’ to a slightly sociable woman that still needs more fixing and I will keep pressing on till I achieve the mark of the high calling, I won’t give up on this one till i get it right.
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails (Proverbs 19:21) we all plan in life, to accomplish one or two things but the most important thing is to know that God plans for our lives prevails over all. One of greatest teachings I learnt and will forever cherish.
I believe this is my write up for this year unless the Spirit of God says otherwise, to be honest with you all that I have been writing and posting here and on Facebook every month was NEVER in my plans for 2012. I knew I had a little passion of writing but never thought it will blossom like it did, which clearly shows that our plans seem to be myopic at times and its only when we allow His divine plans to move that we see a clear picture.Its through these write ups that I touched few people, one way or the other and they appreciated how I listened and obeyed Gods command to change or heal one area of their lives. As you welcome 2013 plan wisely but do not forget to be ready to adjust or cancel some in order to pave a way for Gods.
***Lets plan but make a room for Gods plans to take over….
by
Kesego Ramoleko
