A lot is expected from her
She grew up with much praises to a point where she did not take glory in them
She learnt how to be responsible from a young age
She learnt to take up on task and not wait to be told to do so
She learnt not to trust man, even though she did not fully know who Christ is but knew that He is somehow connected to prayer
At times she beats herself to not having proper childhood like the other kids had. Hihihi (I can imagine Christ whining over the fact that he didn’t have the chance to play football, go to parties and so forth) but the beauty of being called to a defined purpose that is attached to a time frame is that you cannot just do things haphazardly.
At times she would realize she walked over a tough situation but did not feel the pain during the process, a thought dropped in her suggesting maybe she lost a sense of feeling and numbness has taken over. I mean logically speaking that is the only explanation you can deduce from not crying when; You were emotionally thrown out of the family, when it seemed like you want to befriend people that see you as trash.
At times life did not make any sense…
… but through all this the “amazing” thing is friends, family and strangers saw her smiling. Her smile is often likened to shiny stars, when you have them on through one touch- hug, handshake those shiny stars will be all over you and that’s what they need most times one small touch. Her smile was that infectious but deep down its all dark.
She was termed ‘STRONG’ when in actual fact she in not, yes the little life experiences she endured made her strong therefore when people call her strong they speak from these basis and come to her seeking for advice and she assisted where possible.
Behind every sparking eye: tears have rolled down because it was too much to carry
Behind a big heart: there were issues- cries of anguish and secrets that needed to be released
Behind a loud and jolly character: there was a person that went in her room and sadly cried till no voice came out
BEHIND HER FACE THERE IS A WORN-OUT HEART
No matter the state of her heart, she had to be strong for herself and people that believed in her. Christ had to keep on being strong even when He did not want to but all He had in His mind was Gods will should be done. In the midst of whatever you go through, keep being strong because someone next to you in class, at work or where ever, that person is drawing strength from you.
I know as much “Christianly” as you can be at times some questions will always come to you:
Where is God?
Is He watching me go through this and He’s not doing anything about it?
He keeps bringing prophets, friends, pastors and His word to me that He’s there with me but I cannot feel, touch nor see Him
It like you are the only person going through a tough time but the truth is someone else next to you is probably thinking the same thing.
All manner of questions come flooding to you and you have all the scriptures you can use at your disposal but what you really need at that moment is a knock at your door and God comes in then you bombard Him with these questions. At times you yearn for a one on one (face to face) conversation with God because you somehow feel a messenger cannot deliver your message the way you want.
Most times you are afraid to go for a heart scan because what the doctors will discover will only be strings of veins and arteries, any other things is invisible the veins and arteries are there to keep blood flowing in the entire body. If they do not deliver according to their purpose the leg, mouth, tongue, toes, fingers, ears and arms will start demanding for sustenance of blood circulation not necessarily knowing the condition of the heart at that current stage.
It is not a coincidence that the heirs of salvation throughout the globe are called the BODY OF CHIRST, doing different ministerial calls that are mentioned in 1 Corinthians 12 but connected to each other.
When a church of God in San Diego goes through a difficult time, another in Accra Ghana is crying for intercessors to stand with them in prayer…(one that is in Gaborone ought to stand in the gap)… Christ felt this pain and the demands too high to carry but He had to be strong for me and you, for these nations.
We can lay these imaginary facts and say maybe we are blood cells: red blood cells, white blood cells and platelets which most time I relate their function with that of intercessors. Platelets “help the blood to clot and clotting stops the blood from flowing out of the body when a vein or artery is broken” we all know the purpose of intercessors. Now let’s say the pinkie finger of the Body of Christ is here in Malaysia, this automatically makes you inquisitive to know where the knee or the eye lids are.
Funny enough when the ankle on your right feet itches, it’s either your right or left hand fingers instantly go scratch that place this is due to the so called reflex action getting signals from the sensory neurons. Sensory neurons that I like to think connote the work of the Holy Spirit who sends us to stand in prayer and support one another because we are one body and surely the toes in that feet cannot scratch the ankle.
We need to be strong for each other because you never know the person you are healing with your smile when you just failed your exams, you received bad news, you got retrenched, faced with debts but once you smile you are being strong for that person.
This thought has kept me going till date
He did not promise us a sweet smooth sailing but He prepared us for diverse circumstances that we will encounter on the way, He walked through this path before us. If we could look carefully in the jungle we are in we will find a small trail that leads us to the woods, dangerous animals, dark places but His tracks are a light and guide to us in the midst of darkness.
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path (Psalm 119:105)
Christ has gone before you, He is that older brother/sister, younger brother/sister, and those cousins, mother/father, the family you wish you had. He is right there with you all the way. You know how I know all this; I just came out of some situations I have shared with you here and I came out strong, smiling and being loud as usual. All this as a result of the expectations that friends and family had on me, Christ is the only person that understood my pain and collected my tears when I was hurting.
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book (Psalm 56:8)
I thought I was living a pretentious life but He told me, then it would mean He also was pretending to care and die for us on the cross.
There is a DNA in the blood of Jesus Christ and that is the LOVE of Christ, the love He has for us.
WHAT ELSE CAN WE MINISTER WITH EXCEPT THROUGH OURLIVES WHO ARE THE TRUE LIVING GOSPEL
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LAST TIME I CHECKED JESUS CHRIST PREACHED WITH HIS VERY OWN LIFE TO REACH OUT TO PEOPLE.
I have done my part, what is your story?
By Kesego Ramoleko
